Ok, so this may sound a little selfish or crazy. But I've come to realise that we need to have more respect for ourselves. We sometimes need to put ourselves before others. Like when things get crazy or go wrong in our lives.
I don't know about any of you, but I know that when things in my life get crazy, or things go wrong, I put my life on hold. I focus on everyone around me. I try to solve their problems instead of facing mine.
Several years ago, by focusing on everyone else, I put myself in harms way. I let my problems get the better of me, and instead of talking to anyone about it, I let the anger and hurt build up inside me until it came out in the form of self-inflicted cuts and scratches. I didn't seek any help for this for 3 years, before which, it got the better of me.
After seeking help from our school CPSW, I spent several meetings in the school counsellor's office, and all she did was tell me to stop. As a 17 year old, when someone tells you to do something, naturally, you do the opposite. So instead of my problem getting better, it got worse. After weeks of meeting with and emailing our CPSW, I finally got on top of my problem, and I am pleased to say, nothing has happened for nearly 12 months. Oh sure, I've had the occasional urge, but nothing can or will make me go back to the way I was.
I'm a changed person. Sara, you gave me meaning for the present, and hope for the future. Thank you.
Please remember to take a bit of time out of each day for yourself.
Lots of Love to all.
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